Being blind, deaf and mute

I happened to be a victim of a dumb decision.

Why?

That is because I became blind. I was blind to see what’s there right in front of me and wanted more. I had always want to feel love. I was confused, what is love? I searched for love in company of others, I was happy yes but that happiness was temporary and just like a bubble, all of sudden it just puffs in the air and was gone. What I thought was true love isn’t what true love really is.

Another factor is because I was deaf. The people important to me – the ones always there for me – never failed never ceased of reminding me, giving advises but once it goes inside my right ear, it goes out to the left. I just kept on doing what I think I should do, without consideration to what they all have said. I kept on doing that for as long as I can remember

A little later, not only was I blind, deaf, I was also mute. You know what happens when you don’t listen, bad things happen. Yes, things really didn’t go well for me. I was afraid. I couldn’t speak. Afraid that after revealing what has been of me, I would get horribly rejected, disowned even. Telling the truth was never as hard as it was then.

Maybe you might ask. “How could a person be blind, deaf and mute all at the same time?” Well I tell you it’s possible. I was that person, I became that because I thought I live solely for myself. Little did I know that with my actions, people who are dear to me would greatly be affected.

Only when I learned how to speak did the darkness start to disappear and was replaced by light which made it possible for me to see. Because of that light I learned also how to listen.

It’s strange that only when you realize that your inside your darkest pit will you be able to see, hear and speak. Life’s a mystery, sometimes you wont know if the things happening to you is a curse or a gift. But you know what? If there’s one thing I learned, it is that always keep up your optimism. Don’t let gravity keep on pulling you downwards, if you do that, it will just take you deeper and deeper into the ground and eat you ’til you can’t breathe.

I always say this, don’t give up. Open your eyes and next to that, your ears will open, your mouth will and there’s another thing.

Your heart will open as well.

Gift

Everyone of us is a gift. Every person has a gift. Everyone of us is unique in a very good way.

A while ago, as I was wiping the tables, I remembered when it was me and my younger brother – whom I can no longer say as little anymore – doing the same thing every after dinner and we were so happy doing it. During those days there were no worries, life as a kid was perfect. There were no worries yet about the future.  Our mothers and fathers could only imagine dozens of possibilities in store for us.

Now it’s different as adults we are now facing our own road.  As adults we already have our own identity. We are now defining who we are.We always want to be able to leave a mark. We are afraid to make mistakes. We want everything to go as perfect as we want things to be but nothing in this world is perfect, even we aren’t.

Despite that, my friends I tell you, even if things went wrong, remember you are still a gift and you might not know, you may be a gift to others and they’re grateful for your presence . Mistakes are inevitable but still, once you committed so, don’t think yourself as a trash. Sometimes mistakes are necessary so we are opened, we become an even more magnificent gift.

It wont hurt to have a positive mind setting, having such will keep you moving. You went ever have to get stuck up in a pitfall. Just keep in mind that you are a gift and never will you become a trash. There are many who loves you. Continue leaving a mark, a good mark that says it’s you in the most positive way. You are a gift and one a gift is opened, it is the most wonderful thing.

 

Taking a Fall

I actually just got home from a recognition ceremony and an inspirational speaker (Ms. Gretchen Ho) really did inspire me to write about this topic, taking a fall. She said that in order to win, you must know how it feels to fail. And its true, failure makes us humble. Failure makes us realize that we are human beings, that in this mortal world, we can’t be perfect but as a human being we strive to be at least near to perfection. As human beings, we always aspire for something, we are insatiable, As a highly intellectual creatures of this world, we cant help but to have what you call pride. Though pride is not bad, but there still has to be an ample amount of humility in us. Humility is a good virtue, it helps us keep our feet on the ground, That is why as a human, we must remember to be a humble man.

When we fall, with humility, we learn to accept, we become stronger. Just like a baby trying to walk for the first time. The baby without knowing, never gives up, trying and trying to stand, taking each fall as a means to learn and improve their muscles so that the next time they try to stand and walk, they can. A baby is the humblest creature you can find on earth that’s why they are adored and we watch them try everyday learning new things as they grow.

Just like a baby, we fall, we get injured, but having experienced such, we become stronger. If we give up, if we let our pride eat us, then we will just remain as we are now. We will stop improving. That is why we don’t have to be afraid to take a fall, in fact, we must think of that fall as a way to improve ourselves. It is more shameful to give up rather than try to stand up, run and keep on fighting.

I remember the story of “The King of Frost” in The Yellow Fairy Book of Andrew Lang. The step daughter, because she was filled with humility, when she was sent into an icy field to die in frost, the king frost despite giving her great amount of cold pitied her because of her courteousness and “wrapped her up in furs, and covered her with blankets, and he fetched a great box, in which were beautiful jewels and a rich robe embroidered in gold and silver. And she put it on, and looked more lovely than ever.”

Let us be like the step daughter. Despite being rejected, despite experiencing torment, she remained humble causing her not only to survive but bringing with her a chest of gold as she was driven home.We wouldn’t exactly or necessarily get to have a chest of gold in the end but if we keep moving forward despite the odds, if we let ourselves be forged with our failure, then we could be shaped into our ideal self.

Again, don’t be afraid to take a fall, rise, continue to run, believe in yourself and reach your goal.